Intimacy — Behind the Scenes

For years, social media has been the space where I deposit my musings aka blogs. I have thoroughly enjoyed sharing the Lord’s faithfulness through every season – especially the season that got this blog party started.

It was a season that could have left me feeling alone, forgotten, disappointed, heart-broken and in despair. Instead, it was ALL turned for good with this daily blog. As much as I desire to inspire, motivate and encourage others with the words I speak every day, nine times out of ten – it is for me. I need those words to kick-start me and my day. I need those comments and emojis to fuel my desire for writing yet another blog. I know that sounds self-centered – but it’s my truth!

How sweet it is that twelve plus years ago after my sweetheart departed for heaven that I could say: “God, You have turned my mourning into dancing for me; You have put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness, to the end that my tongue and my heart and everything glorious within me may sing praise to You and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever.” (Psalm 30:11-12)

Yes, that is my story and I’m sticking to it. I am no superwoman that doesn’t have those times when I feel “less than” the praiser and worshipper that I should always be. But with all I know and with the deep wells that I’ve dug that hold the “Springs of Living Water” in me, I have come to know my Source of supply. I want that for you so much.

I never take it for granted when someone reaches out to me after they have read my blog. This last week, two days in a row, I heard from two people with incredibly difficult situations going on in their lives. Had I not “dug those deep wells and had an intimate relationship with the Source (God) of supply, I would have had little to offer them.

Despite my “glass house” living aka letting the world know my vulnerabilities, my missing-the-marks, my truths and my untruths – I am increasingly challenged to NOT exploit these blogs just for the “likes” and validation. I don’t want to publicly be a know-it-all, but to be a know-Him. I want to press into that secret place where I am developing an intimacy with my Lord that I treasure.

Do you remember when Jesus told Peter, James, and John who witnessed His Transfiguration that they were not to tell anyone about it until after He had risen. Me, the tell-all gal, can only imagine how it must have felt for them coming down the mountain. They wanted to tell the whole world about Who Jesus was, only to realize that not one person could know right then.

I would have wanted to scream from the rooftops that Jesus – the One they mocked was the Son of God. I would want people to be in awe of what I had seen. And I would want to turn it into a blog!!! Yet that was not Jesus’ style. It still isn’t.

With all my open, revealing blogs, I am more convinced than ever that Jesus wants a hidden life with me – with us. He wants us to take Him at His word. I get it. He’s not calling us to abandon our social lives, but, I believe He is wanting to unravel some unseen things in our hearts. He wants intimacy with us – behind the scenes.